Category: anxiety

Fear of Success

We learn through failure. I know this already and have most certainly experienced it repeatedly. It’s an ugly truth to face but, like most ugly truths, it is one that becomes beautiful when seen through willing eyes. So often I’m scared to even attempt life because I’m afraid I’ll fail — fail myself, fail others, fail God. I don’t love…

“Do Not Worry” — Sparse Counsel for A Life Deeply Lived

Matthew 6:25-34 (The Cotton Patch Gospel): 25. “Therefore, let me tell you all something: Don’t worry about making a living—what you’ll eat, what you’ll drink, what you’ll wear. Isn’t the life of a man more important than what he eats? Think for a moment about the birds of the sky. They don’t plant. They don’t harvest. They don’t store up…

What Mental Illness Looks Like to Me: One of These Things…

You know the little Sesame Street diddy: “One of these things is not like the other One of these things just doesn’t belong Can you tell me which things is not like the other By the time I’m finished my song?” Life is both blurry and vivid. Sometimes it’s too vivid: colours scream at you, feel too hot or cold,…

What Mental Illness Looks Like to Me: Drained of Colour

A few weeks ago I was challenged to engage in a photography project: “What does mental illness look like to you?” Intrigued, I puttered around for a few days wondering what in the world I could photograph that would be an accurate representation of something so touchy for me. And then the first of many “AHA!” moments hit me: It…

Confession

Finally. I’m on my last day of medical leave. After this weekend I’ll back at work, slowly re-establishing a routine, and continuing whatever healing process God seems to have me on. God. Now there’s a thought. God and I still are having words about the necessity of the WWF Smackdown that’s happened over the past few weeks. If God had just…

You’re Beautiful… and Terrifying

We’ve all had our “AHA!” moments when we read about the experiences of other people that so closely mirror our own. And when we’ve been feeling locked away and lonely for so long, the yelling is earth-shattering. It was just so for me today as I read a guest post by Alexandra Elle from On Being With Krista Tippet: Standing…

Unraveling

I’ve taken almost a month off from writing blog posts. To be honest, I’m not sure I’m ready to be back in the game. But I have to find productive ways to pass my time or else things tend to fall apart pretty fast. Where do I start? This is one of those posts where I need to chew on…